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A Couple Again in Bologna

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For the first time in many years, my wife Miras and I headed off on a trip together without our son Raf in tow. He'd been such a fixture on our lifetime of adventures since his birth back in 2010 that it felt super strange to be heading to an airport hotel without him. But he was enrolled in an online school now, and they care about attendance, so a couple's trip it was. I guess we couldn't have chosen a more romantic location: Bologna in Italy, with a side trip to the microstate of San Marino. And we made the most of every minute, behaving more like teenagers than the older couple we'd become. Yes, holding hands all the time was back, along with sweet moments over coffee, pizza and flickering candlelight, followed by nights when we rediscovered a little of the carefree abandon we'd thought we'd left behind. I can't pretend my ongoing shoulder problems didn't follow me to Italy too, but the depressive slump I felt whenever I saw the bumps in the Nort...

Qatar Wanderings

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A pattern had begun to emerge. Whenever things were getting worse in the UK, I booked a solo escape to somewhere that reminded me of the expansive, limitless, good life I used to lead in Saudi and elsewhere. Yes, that was the main reason I had booked a fairly last-minute trip to Qatar. It would take me back to a lifestyle where everything felt good: warm evenings, incredible food and that unbeatable Arab vibe. So, what were my Qatar wanderings like? Well, from the minute I landed in Doha, I just felt so at home. I arrived in the late morning, but the relentless 38-degree heat didn't bother me at all under my rather huge hat. The ease of the metro astounded me. It was so fast, easy and efficient. I reached the souq district and found a classic resto to enjoy a multi-plate Arab breakfast — so tasty and incredibly photogenic. Then, en route to my hotel, I got a quick haircut for £4 from a super-friendly Bangladeshi guy and wondered why the same cut in the UK costs a ridiculous £17. ...

The End Didn't Feel Like the End

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I could hardly believe it! After following Gerson Therapy fairly faithfully for almost two years — not travelling for over a year, obsessively juicing carrots, apples and greens every damn day, shoving coffee up my ass at least three times a day and not touching alcohol or anything artificially sweet — something arose to deprive me of the joy of a slow transition back to something like a normal life. You see, I had fallen off a small ladder in the summer. I didn't feel much at the time, but several weeks later shoulder pain began to build, and the function loss and pain were so bad by early September that surfing became impossible. Gerson had brought mixed success with it. Three more melanomas had appeared, although one was already visible in photographs before I started and the others might have been lurking on my skin back then too. My blood pressure had normalised within weeks and eventually some inflammation markers, including my neutrophil-to-lymphocyte ratio, returned to no...

All Aboard the Eurostar

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While I've been to Paris a few times and France several times, my wife and son had never been to either before we boarded the Eurostar in late spring and positively flew across to France at speeds of up to 230 kph, through the Channel Tunnel and straight into Paris Gare du Nord. Once we reached the city, we checked into a slightly shabby hotel strategically located within easy walking distance of the station. It was early evening when we arrived, so we crashed pretty early, eager to make an early start the following day. The next morning, we made the most of it by rising at first light and embarking on a fairly hectic schedule that took us from the Arc de Triomphe to Place du Trocadéro for some photographs, up the Eiffel Tower for magnificent cityscape views, along the River Seine to see the newly reconstructed Notre-Dame, and through the fabulous Louvre area before finally ending the day in the Montmartre district. But this trip wasn't all about Paris. In fact, I was det...

A Melanoma Met or a BCC?

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Look it was obvious it was something. This stupid lesion had sprung up on my chest during a virus back in November 2024. My chest was full of them but only this one persisted. I had photographed it from early 2025. It caused a minor panic attack in Sarajevo when I became convinced it was something very serious and my wife Miras told me I had to forget about it while we were travelling. But I just couldn't forget about it. This was my life. The derm suggesting it was melanoma during my February skin check had pushed me over the edge. If only she had confidently diagnosed it as Basal Cell Carcinoma (BCC) in the first place. Now that would have saved me an awful amount of anxiety, but she didn't see it that way and even challenged the consultant, who said it needed removing but agreed with my diagnosis. You see, a BCC is a very common skin cancer and hardly ever metastasizes, so is far preferable to a primary or secondary melanoma.  About six weeks after the excision biopsy in...

Malta Was Supposed to Be an Escape

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Riding on the train from Norwich to Gatwick felt more like an escape from my problems rather than taking a pleasant short break. You see, during my February skin check the trainee dermatologist had flagged a lesion on my chest as a possible melanoma. I didn't believe it - it looked far more like a BCC - but her mannerisms and confidence and insistence were more than enough to send me into another round of anxiety and what ifs. In March, the lesion was excised by an empathetic and talented surgeon from Sri Lanka, who said she'd send off the sample for analysis. Another six to eight-week wait - more than enough time to imagine the worst - lay ahead to find out the pathology result. From my perspective, if the derm was right, it couldn't be a new melanoma primary (it just didn't have the features) but could be a melanoma metastasis potentially upstaging me to a far more serious medical situation. Anyway, in the midst of this new despair, I fled to the airport with a thousa...

From Sarajevo, Bosnia to Lake Bled, Slovenia

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Nothing much happened in our lives between arriving back from Tunisia to departing to our second destination of 2025: Sarajevo. This time, my family and I returned to the most convenient airport for us here in Norfolk - Stansted - to catch an unbelievably cheap £20 one-way flight with Ryanair to the Bosnian Capital.  I hadn’t thought much about this trip until it was almost upon us, which meant quite a lot of our choices were spontaneous.  In Sarajevo, we spent the morning checking out two museums and the afternoon taking a cable car to a snow capped mountain top and walking down an abandoned toboggan track. Whatever we didn’t see, didn’t matter. Onwards to Mostar on an incredible train track through the mountains to a town built around a stunning bridge for a one-night stay. Two vegetarian meals (for me at least) at Foodhaus were the highlight. Then into a private taxi to Dubrovnik, via a stunning waterfall, where we stayed for two nights in the heart of the old town. It was...

Back in the Arab World

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After a truly miserable 2024 - a year of multiple surgeries, thousands of coffee enemas and fresh juices, various consultations, no travel, and frequently wondering if I even had a future - I was determined to make 2025 a whole lot better. Unsurprisingly, I decided to prioritise family travel and booked several flights in late 2024 to give us all something to look forward to. In order to mimic our old Saudi life, where everything felt limitless and abundant, I chose a return to the Arab world, to the underrated North African destination Tunisia, as our first destination of 2025.  The airport of departure - Gatwick - used to be a place I dreaded going to, much preferring the convenience of Norwich or Stansted, but my mind was now in a very different place. I felt a surge of gratitude and privilege just being alive and well and strolling through Gatwick onto an EasyJet flight to Enfidha. Funnily enough, I hadn’t even checked exactly where the airport was in Tunisia at the time of bo...

A Guesthouse Door Opens

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In the midst of a now typically heated argument with my mother about whether God had abandoned us, I shouted I need a job now! You see, I couldn’t wait any longer. McDonald’s was killing me physically and mentally a little more each day, but we needed the money too much for me to just quit. We’d already suffered catastrophic financial losses in the wake of the super typhoon, endured a total loss of peace from the merciless Chinese developing a five-star palace in front of our Siargao home and I’d personally experienced the horror of multiple melanomas. All these terrible things had already shaken my faith to the very core. Now, just day to day living in England was becoming too much to handle. That’s why I had shouted. I wondered if God might finally listen to the desperate cry of a broken person and actually do something good about it.  Amazingly, within days of the argument, I received a call from a local guesthouse. I had applied for at least 25 local jobs in the wake of the ter...

McDonalds

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As autumn approached, I realised I'd need additional employment alongside my surf shop duties to get us through another year. You see, the surf school more or less closes down every November and the surf shop only remains open at the weekends for a few hours each day (sometimes closing early if it rains) until it closes between Christmas and Easter.  Anyway, late summer I passed the interview at Cromer McDonalds and scheduled my first shift for late September. From the very beginning, I found everything incredibly hard. Instead of training you to be a master of one or two processes, they move you around the floor like a yoyo. I started on burgers but soon got moved to fried chicken, drinks, sorting orders, fries and washing up. I was crap at pretty much everything and working alongside teenagers who laughed their way through every shift. And while they didn't take it that seriously, they were far, far faster than me!  One evening, a guy ordering on the drive through called me ...

The Second Greek Test

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Following our move to Cromer, life had settled down into a familiar routine. I continued my work at the town's only surf school (now just a short walk rather than an arduous 4-mile cycle ride up and down a hill away) and my wife's work was now even closer. While my son's life was definitely lonelier (he no longer had his five cousins to play with), he had his own loft space and privacy and everything was a whole lot calmer and quieter than living with my brother in the Strand. Gerson Therapy routines continued too, which was a whole lot easier in our own space without worrying about the constant whir of the juicer or the availability of a toilet to expel the contents of yet another coffee enema. Back in early 2024, in the midst of discovering two new primary invasive melanomas, I had sent my blood to Greece for analysis as part of my consultations with my Gerson practitioner. RGCC in Greece confirmed a 3.2 result in March 2024, which basically indicated a certain level of c...

Leaving The Strand Forever

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As I mentioned in one of my previous blogs , it became apparent in early 2024 that we couldn't stay at my brother's place forever. He'd given us a year following my Whatsapp message plea from the Philippines. It hadn't been an easy time for anyone. I'd had my face carved up, hadn't got over all our other losses psychologically speaking, and was trying desperately to heal the Gerson way, but they had their lives to get on with and the small rent we paid them didn't remotely compensate for the imposition of a family in the heart of their home. While they had originally given us a deadline of September 13th to leave, we luckily found alternative accommodation sooner. It was a tiny loft space behind a bungalow situated two miles away in the heart of Cromer for 100 pounds a month more than we were paying at my brothers. It had looked more likely we wouldn't be able stay on the coast and be forced to move back to my mother's house in land, but when this af...

A Brain MRI

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They began in February - headaches - which never seemed to stop. I've never suffered from them before, so I knew something was wrong. The problem with melanoma is any little innocuous symptom you might have - let alone constant headaches - could indicate something very serious. Headaches are a symptom of around 50% of those who experience disease progression in the brain. I spent a lot of time online researching any articles which might help establish whether my headaches were melanoma or something else. The most disturbing article I read was about chronic headaches being experienced by a cohort of breast cancer survivors. For those whose headaches went on longer than 9 weeks, 51% were later diagnosed with brain mets. Of course, the article was about breast cancer, but melanoma loves the brain even more than breast cancer, so when the headaches wouldn't quit after three months, I became utterly convinced I was gonna die soon! Of course, I had to jump through a few hoops to prov...

The Saudi Connection in Bristol

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Something positive finally happened and, ironically, it was connected with Saudi Arabia. Completely out of the blue, the British guy in charge of the newly formed Saudi surf team invited Raf and I to join him and the entire Saudi team at Bristol’s Wave - an outdoor wave pool with pretty good waves - and onto Newquay for a surf competition. All our expenses were to be paid and I’d get a little extra for doing some social media reels. While I knew I couldn’t continue my nutritional therapy, I decided to accept the offer but only for Bristol (which meant only two nights away from the juicing and enema routine).  On a sunny day in the middle of May, Raf and I boarded trains in Cromer and Norwich, crossed London, jumped onto a fast train to Bristol, before checking into a lovely hotel on the outskirts of the city. The Saudis arrived much later than us, so our first afternoon was alone in the mall, where Raf devoured a beef burger and I picked up a bargain beanie for £4 (never one to was...

Ravaged by Three Primary Melanomas

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My world has fallen apart many times since leaving Saudi in July 2021. Typhoons, Chinese construction near your dream home and skin cancer tends to do that. Inevitably, after each set back, I wondered why - why me? why us? why now? Unsurprisingly, I almost felt like we (or I) were under some sort of curse . However, nothing could have prepared me for what God had lined up next. I can tell you the exact moment when my world began to fall apart again: I had spotted a tiny 1mm black spot on my chin in the mirror at work and thought it was just a blotch of ink, so I tried to rub it off but it was a stubborn mark and wasn’t going anywhere. In a sudden state of panic, I kept on rubbing until I caused my skin to bleed a little. I knew this mark wasn’t supposed to be there. And that meant it might be melanoma again.  A few weeks later, in mid-December 2023, I was assured by a private dermatologist in Norwich that the lesion looked totally normal. But I’ve heard that all before. The next da...